Prayers and hymns Epictetus

Prayer of self-examination in illness and death

Discourses 3.5.7–10

Historical translation

Thomas Wentworth Higginson, 1890

For my own part, I would be found engaged in nothing but in the regulation of my own Will; how to render it undisturbed, unrestrained, uncompelled, free. I would be found studying this, that I may be able to say to God, “Have I transgressed thy commands? Have I perverted the powers, the senses, the instincts which thou hast given me? Have I ever accused thee, or censured thy dispensations? I have been ill, because it was thy pleasure, like others; but I willingly. I have been poor, it being thy will; but with joy. I have not been in power, because it was not thy will; and power I have never desired. Hast thou ever seen me saddened because of this? Have I not always approached thee with a cheerful countenance, prepared to execute thy commands and the indications of thy will? Is it thy pleasure that I should depart from this assembly? I depart. I give thee all thanks that thou hast thought me worthy to have a share in it with thee; to behold thy works, and to join with thee in comprehending thy administration.”

Compared with Perseus; corrected its OCR “snare” to “share” and omitted context outside 3.5.7–10.

Greek

The ancient words

ἐμοὶ μὲν γὰρ καταληφθῆναι γένοιτο μηδενὸς ἄλλου ἐπιμελουμένῳ ἢ τῆς προαιρέσεως τῆς ἐμῆς, ἵνʼ ἀπαθής, ἵνʼ ἀκώλυτος, ἵνʼ ἀνανάγκαστος, ἵνʼ ἐλεύθερος. ταῦτα ἐπιτηδεύων θέλω εὑρεθῆναι, ἵνʼ εἰπεῖν δύνωμαι τῷ θεῷ μή τι παρέβην σου τὰς ἐντολάς; μή τι πρὸς ἄλλα ἐχρησάμην ταῖς ἀφορμαῖς ἃς ἔδωκας; μή τι ταῖς αἰσθήσεσιν ἄλλως, μή τι ταῖς προλήψεσιν; μή τί σοί ποτʼ ἐνεκάλεσα; μή τι ἐμεμψάμην σου τὴν διοίκησιν; ἐνόσησα, ὅτε ἠθέλησας· καὶ οἱ ἄλλοι, ἀλλʼ ἐγὼ ἑκών. πένης ἐγενόμην σου θέλοντος, ἀλλὰ χαίρων. οὐκ ἦρξα, ὅτι σὺ οὐκ ἠθέλησας· οὐδέποτʼ ἐπεθύμησα ἀρχῆς. μή τί με τούτου ἕνεκα στυγνότερον εἶδες; μὴ οὐ προσῆλθόν σοί ποτε φαιδρῷ τῷ προσώπῳ, ἕτοιμος εἴ τι ἐπιτάσσεις, εἴ τι σημαίνεις; νῦν με θέλεις ἀπελθεῖν ἐκ τῆς πανηγύρεως· ἄπειμι, χάριν σοι ἔχω πᾶσαν, ὅτι ἠξίωσάς με συμπανηγυρίσαι σοι καὶ ἰδεῖν ἔργα τὰ σὰ καὶ τῇ διοικήσει σου συμπαρακολουθῆσαι .

Literal English

Editorial draft · developed with AI assistance

May I be found attending to nothing but my own faculty of choice, so that it may be free from passion, unhindered, unforced, and free. I want to be found practicing these things, so that I may be able to say to God: “Did I transgress any of your commands? Did I use for other ends the resources you gave me—my senses or my preconceptions? Did I ever accuse you? Did I fault your government? I was sick when you wished it; so were others, but I willingly. I became poor because you wished it, but gladly. I did not govern because you did not wish it; I never desired office. Did you ever see me gloomier on that account? Did I not always approach you with a bright face, ready if you command or signal anything? “Now you wish me to leave the festival. I go. I thank you wholly because you judged me worthy to share the festival with you, to see your works, and to follow your government with understanding.”

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Sources & notes

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